Re: THe NAC Lots-O-Post Thread
I was just sitting across from the most disturbing guy i've ever listened to for any duration. Like quiet, soft-spoken, serial-killer, crazy ex-marine intense. He was with some girl on what sounded like a first or second date, and they were headed towards new york city.
Fascinating wasn't the word...i can't even imitate this guy to relay the story. So i was being a sketchball in the seat across the aisle, typing feverishly to transcribe some of the shit this guy was saying. Droid 2 Global rocks.
So here's my text file...imagine some guy saying this shit in a quiet, intense monotone. Some of it is cliffnoted where i couldn't keep up, but these are the highlights i caught.
I am a pleasure to myself in the presence of others. Affirmation given after receiving 'bodywork' from spiritual advisor
Parents showing prison walls as deterrent
Parents were in prison, where executions took place. This is different than parochial school
Bad parents, very damaged childhood
Jumping in lake with silt, impetego and rash, like life after therapy session
I am intimidating, my brain works much faster than others, and my stature tends to overwhelm
If this train goes to new york, it will be because i hijacked it
Marine instructors, hide plan of attack under their cover
Smartest guy in four platoons. Carried flag. I know i'm incredibly intelligent. I wanted to take lesser recruits and punch them in their neck until they bleed out their ears.
Perhaps my perception of reality is distorted (drunk thinking it's ok to weave in and out)
Like bewitched, perceive like agnes moorhead, feel like i can view myself from the third person
Very charismatic, slightly erratic behavior, extensive vocabulary, coupled to a dominating physical stature leads to a threatening perception rather than a desirable one.
and yes i do think i'm 'the shit'. But i know i'm in control of my own psychology, which usually means that if someone has a problem with their perception of me, that is 'their' misinterpretation, not my misrepresentation. Everything i say is correct, it is selfless, not selfish. If my behavior was the rule rather than the exception, if people could accept this as the social norm rather than an ad hominum attack, perhaps we wouldn't have many problems we have in the world today.
(Girl crying) i did not mean to impugn on your character, please don't take what i say personally. This applies to you, to me, and to every soul in the universe. I may have raised my voice but it's only due to the strength of my convictions. I did not mean to offend nor frighten, and i apologize if i've caused you to have that misinterpretation.
So what do you think of me, after two weeks?
I went to a college ranked in the top 5 party schools. I made deans list, but i liked pretty women as well, and i see no reason why the two are not mutually exclusive.
According to this book, there is an interlocking between child abuse, psycotherapy, and alcoholism.
Inside this large body is a little boy, and while i know the physical impression i present is quite dominating, and i've grown to present an emotional impression to match my stature, mentally i'm similar to a little boy given the opportunity to control the terminator. You laugh a very nervous laugh. If you can't be yourself in front of me, someone who has been completely honest with you, who can you be yourself in front of?
I have trouble taking care of myself in the psychological sense sometimes, i understand this. But i restrain that to my own internal thoughts, never letting it affect my external actions.
I fear i've been slightly liberal with my finances this week, so i will be dressing very spartan for the forseeable future.
