LR_2000_XJ
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Ray H said:So whats a "class 3"?
Sucks for those with mental problems.
Whats the deal with that and guns, arent you guys supposed to not have firearms?
Bipolar 3 is supposed to be the most extreme with more than two manic episodes a week. Only I get that sometimes, and then all is good for a month or so, then it gets bad again for no reason other than my stupid brain chemical imbalancment or crossed wires short circuit or something like that. Anyways, about the guns you mentioned, I never said I had or was going to use one. And I'm really not sure if they allow or disallow bipolar peeps to have one. Usually, when in a psychotic rage, anything around me pretty much turns to weapons, so it is the wise around me to leave me alone till I calm down and go about the rest of the day like nothing happened. I know it messes up people's nerves around me, but I truly hate that about it all, and at times wish I was not alive for it. But that is also part of the crap that I live with. I credit my wife for bringing out the better person in me and since I have known her, I have had less bad times and more good days, only, it all got bad when I injured my back, and then it was all bad, and very ugly. I can't ever see me not loving my wife after enduring my crap, especially right after I screwed my back up, and just to mention, I have never, or ever will hit her, as I just literally whack my head against something hard before ever going at her and that always calms me down as I tend to the bleeding on my head. Like I said, I have some problems, but there are others with worst situations than I and I am also lucky to have a person who understands me like my wife. See, I know when I am not all the way better when I dont use proper periods and commas and use run on sentences like I am not breathing when I'm talking. Well now I hope this helps explain a little better. But it is a little different for everybody with this problem, so I can only say from my perspective and how I see my brother who also has this as well. You know what I feel is funny, is my brother and I get along well, but people would think that two people with this problem would get disasterous, but in reality, we understand and respectfully have concideration for eachother's little peaves and triggers.
OK, it's getting hot outside since the breeze stopped and it's freaking 11:15 pm! I mean, this is the desert for crying out loud, and it feels humid! damn, I was out enjoying the nice cool breeze, and now it's gone up to 77 degrees and this hot laptop is not helping! I gotta go inside and cool off in front of the AC, ya, that will help. I'm OK, I promise, for now. ugggh!....OK, going inside!